So, I guess I should introduce myself in my first post on my new blog…
I’m Mary. Thirty-one, a high school ICT teacher, addicted to running long distance, in love with my cat Bella…oh and nearly twenty-one weeks pregnant with my first child.
I’m probably not a typical first time Mum. Although I love working with children, I don’t have much interest in babies at all. They just don’t DO anything! I’m not somebody to make funny noises or talk to a baby in the room and I definitely won’t be lining up to hold a baby that came from inside another human just hours earlier in the day.
I am under the impression that most mums-to-be have begun counting down the day until they get to meet their baby by this stage in their pregnancy. Whereas, in my case, I’ve begun making detailed training plans ready for when I can start training properly again as I hope to be running my first 100 miler less than a year after giving birth. I write all about my running adventures over on my running blog A Healthier Moo though.
Don’t get me wrong, I am very much looking forward to having children, and especially excited to start showing them things, taking them places and giving them plenty of ‘firsts’. That’s the teacher in me coming out I guess, but I think I will enjoy it more when they are a little older and I can interact with them a little easier rather than when they are just a crying, pooping machine in the early days.
The actual birth itself doesn’t worry me, other than if I were to have a caesarean. That means more time away from doing things (including running) and losing some of my independence. I’m a very independent person.
I’m not too worried about the weight gain, breast growth and all the other physical changes I thought would concern me when it came to being pregnant back when I was a teenager. My actual concerns are the inability to do anything meaningful for several months, the possibility of random people wanting to touch my stomach, friends and strangers thinking I just want to talk baby and losing who I am. One of my friends said to me a couple of years ago “I never introduce myself as Harrison’s Mum, always as Carley”, as she didn’t want to ‘just’ be someone’s Mum and I completely understand where she was coming from.
I do really want to have children, but I don’t want to just be ****’s Mum and talk Mum things and do Mum things and wear Mum clothes. I still want to be Mary and enjoy the things that I enjoy doing, just to also be able to share them with my mini-me too!
So, if you feel like following me along on my (very honest!) pregnancy journey, then please feel free to follow me on Bloglovin’ or Twitter. Things are still very new around here, but expect some site personalisation to appear soon.